good-bye hello

say good-bye
to the veneer covering your soul
to shallow shadow living
say hello to all you are
those parts of you
kept tidy and tucked away
integrate your shiny self
with your darkness too

say good-bye
to not knowing
you
to not reflecting
to not pondering
how those you love
experience
you
say hello
to living inside out
be present to yourself
listen
listen
listen
as others share
what they see
who they see
what they feel

say good-bye
to running here and there
to getting it all done
to being okay with the frazzle
breaking your mind
feeding your anxiety
say hello to stillness
to stopping
ceasing
waiting
to closing your eyes
just breathing
say good-bye
to pretending
you’re doing fine
the pain in your body
is telling a different story
all that scrolling
diminishes you
watching another series
living other’s lives
just won’t do
say hello
to being real
to crying
to sobbing
to lamenting
the hard stories
that live in you
must be told

say good-bye
to your own strength
intellect
will
gifts
determination
you’re such a success
but kind of a mess
say hello
to faith
to trust
you did not make yourself
He created you
every moment is written
His thoughts about you
are precious

the only way

will we ever learn
doesn’t it concern you
what will it take to get through
your hype your type
your tight tight grip
you don’t want to slip
so you give others your lip
you just strip away humanity
society can’t be free
with all this anxiety
you think you're the most
with your posts
you say i’ll be free
he says i’ll be free
she says i’ll be free
if i just see what he sees
say what she sees
be what he sees
like a virus
you spiral your viral
perspective
what makes you think
others want your infection
when they know
it’s about selection
who’s in who’s out
i need a heart mask
to stop the bleeding
i’m reeling
my soul is spinning
nobody is winning
this losing game
no one is willing
to stop the blaming
shaming
conflating
the Cross
the flag
the dross will be tossed
someone is hungry
someone is alone
someone has no home
being taken from their own
who are we feeding
do we visit the prison
or stay behind the bars
we keep building around our hearts
did you listen to their story
did you listen to their pain
what does it matter if you gain
the whole world
but
LOSE
YOUR
SOUL
i can’t believe
what some will rearrange
disengage and exchange
for their soul
LORD
HAVE
MERCY
the only way
to be free
is to get on our knees
Jesus wept

change me

sometimes it feels like
i don’t know anymore
can you point me
to the exit door
i thought it would be the tribe
that had the right vibe
or the cool cause
would become my why
but I find myself
asking why
the night seems darker
and all the sides just lie
messages dance and prance
through the
social media sphere
shouting
the truth is here
the truth is here
the truth is here
what you see is what is true
period
what i see is false
period
we’re both right
we’re both wrong
period
so we sing our song
loud and proud
and if you won’t sing along
and if I won’t play
cancel
cancel
cancel
we say
but i am here
and so are you
maybe the push to win
is just polished
acceptable sin
i’m trying to see
to open my heart
to start a conversation
to lay down my weapons
to deal with me
to recognize
what’s inside
this flawed broken man
learning to stand on my knees
dear God
help me please
to realize
that there is no prize
waiting for any side
when we choose to erase
a person who has
or doesn’t have faith
we all bear His image
we all need a center
it can’t be me
it can’t be you
the Creator’s justice
His love and grace
is solid and true
for me for you
the human race
needs to slow down
and embrace
our limited sight
our twisted mind
and instead
taste and see
He is good
He is good
He is good
you and i
are not the answer
to the problems we’ve made
it’s the enemy within
this fractured soul
that needs redemption
to be made whole
what if we stopped
stealing the healing
with all our shouting and screaming
and in stillness and silence
we met our Creator
and finally meet ourselves
as we really are
and quietly pray
change me
change me
change me