i belong

i’m on a lost and found table
which means
of course
i know exactly where i am
but no one else does

separated from certainty
waiting to be recognized
next to a gray hoodie
and a pink water bottle
adorned with barbie stickers
and a pair of warby parker sun glasses

it’s funny how much stuff
can go unnoticed
and is apparently unwanted
and how temporary
and impossibly thin i can feel

like the shadow of a tree
lengthening and diminishing
as the sun welcomes the night

after all these years
of waking up
you realize that life is an apparition
we are a mist on this earth

we toil and run
sing and work
dance and hate
love and fret
create and scream

and the theme of it all
the ostinato beneath this journey
is a longing
that we know cannot be fulfilled
while we are still here

we long to be free
from being tethered to the soil
and we know
that we have been leaving
since our story began
we just want to stay

so instead of identifying
where this longing leads
we invest our souls
in tiny pursuits
expiration dates constrict
all of our efforts
to be known
loved
and declared worthy
until we find ourselves
on the lost and found table

screaming for someone to join our tribe
yet afraid of losing our loneliness
crying for justice and healing
yet ignoring the wounds
of our crumbling souls

i will be found

after all
the warby parkers
were picked up
surely someone will
will see me

has seen me

will remember me

has created me

will look for me

has found me

i belong

if

if the light can reach my soul
then why can’t i find my way
if the words can pierce my mind
then why are there none to say
if the room is filled with friends
then why am i so alone
if i just can’t see the end
then where am i to go

if i can sing a melody of fire
then why is it cold at night
if i can walk along a distant shore
then why am i sad and my eyes so dry
if i can run into your arms
then why is the path so long
if i can wander in a field of memories
then why do i awake forlorn
fly
oh my soul
fly
the Light has come down for you
guiding your searching soul
His promises faithful and and true
for they will mend and make you whole
and remember
the never-forsaking God
is beside you
let His embrace define you

fly
oh my soul
fly
His fire will scatter the night
stay on the sorrowful shore
and raise your tears to the sky
as you open your heart
and let go of the why
yes it’s narrow and steep
so stay on your knees
and fly
oh my soul
fly

maybe

maybe it’s because
the way things are
i’m longing
for what used to be
maybe it’s because
what used to be
is why the way things are

maybe it’s because
i’m remembering
a world that was gentle and true
maybe it’s because
what’s gentle and true
was forsaken and broken
back then too
maybe it’s because
we’re lost wandering souls
that it seems faith is gone
hope and love sailed away
maybe it’s because
we’ve wandered so far
the light seems so dim
we don’t know
who we are
maybe we can turn
and swim upstream
awaken and see the Way
maybe we can hear
the Truth with our ears
and Life can return
to our poor restless souls
let’s surrender
right now
all we think we know
and find His rest and peace
for only if we lose our lives
in His love and light
only then can we rise
pray with me
that we will see
the world we carry inside
mended and healed
by the Way
the Truth
the Life