say goodbye and set aside the troubles that are storming inside at days end now it's all a remember when so feel the sads the mads the glads but more than these give thanks and see the treasures the pleasures that were yours remember the sum of them all is the story of you the unrepeatable you a treasure created by your Maker who paints the sky a masterpiece be at peace you unrepeatable you be at peace and have a nook night
what do i see when i see me let's see i suppose i see what i want to see and at times i see what i long to be at times i'm such a selfie self is proud and can be so loud i can push away by the words i say those i say i love why am i that way if my attitude or my words hurt you please forgive me i hope you can see a way to forgive me i suppose i need to see through eyes that are not mine but belong to the One who makes me whole and sees all that makes me me and when i'm known by the One who knows all that's inside i can decide that i won't hide anymore Lord help me see my wife and kids the family my friends my neighbor too and say no to self and live to serve Lord help me let go of me and be free to love to give to be alive to others and die to me and be free
no sun today and that's ok i won't tell the clouds to go away they can stay it's a cloudrise day
dear cloudrise help me feel the sad in me and to be real and just be free to be sad pensive gray apprehensive stay here with me
there is beauty in the shadow longing in the sky questions in my soul sometimes all i know is i don't know why it's overcast and colorless and with a sigh the teacher said everything is meaningless so i just breathe just breathe
so help me wait in this pale dawn help me to see that i belong to You though the light is dim i still see Him and i will remain still quiet hopeful one day no tears one day no fear one day all will be right all will be Light until then my tears will help me welcome this cloudrise
dear Lord when i am restless let the tranquility of your Spirit the comfort of your word the light of your love be my peace and still my stirring
when i am anxious let the power of your grace the assurance of your sovereignty the goodness of your will warm the frozen fear i feel inside release the heart shackles and settle my thoughts in the river of your presence
when i am triggered angry let your mercy help me remember how much is broken in me let your justice be the end of my longing let my heart be open to you and this world send me as your loving healing presence as i receive your love and your healing
when i am lost bring me home when i am so sad that light seems a memory and hope a forgotten song reorient my mind reset my spirit
help me see that the suffering is but a moment that all i long for awaits in your house no more tears no need of light or sun no darkness
thank you my dear Lord thank you
you are not the lies that tattle and rattle inside a beauty will rise when you tell those lies to slip away and die in the Light of your Maker oh the song of your life is greater than those failures want you to believe because we’re all a crazy remix and mash up of brilliant stars and tattered rags of bumps and dents that’s who we are so don’t do anything just stand in the Light of your Maker oh the song of your life is greater than shame and blame want you to believe breathe just be and breathe and see the Light inside you breathe just be and breathe and see the Light inside you you are more than all you do just breathe your identity is more than all you do you are here a masterpiece just breathe and be at peace and receive His love His light receive
so i think that we should sing about the sad sad shadows why do i keep remembering their darkened glance it seems that they want to dance into the story and at any moment the sad sad shadows fall on me so about those sad sad shadows inside those weathered picture frames a broken promise here something undone there framed fractures and failures each one calls my name and the struggle starts again with one word oh the shadow of shame falls on me so listen sad sad shadows i remembered today that you don’t have to stay you’re not the whole story Light and Glory can rewrite your songs mend all the wrongs and scatter the darkness not just for a moment but for eternity all these parts of me will be restored once more oh sad sad shadow the final say will not be yours the Light will end the night and all the sad sad shadows will go away and there will be only Light
at this ripe young age can it be three score as i turn each page i know less not more and the more of less i know it seems it’s about letting go i let go of the boy i used to be though he still seems to want his own way so still letting go of my selfish ways that boy won’t go away that’s okay i’m learning letting go i let go of just me “i do” means now “we” can it be two score and there is so much more of letting go that i need to know for “we” letting go of seeking me in her letting go of smashing mirrors with my pride letting go of thinking it’s better to hide letting go of staying inside my head letting go of keeping my heart to myself i guess the long slow road of letting go of self letting go of expectations of well everything and everyone letting go of just taking letting go of just faking that we’re all okay i pray i practice well all the lettings go’s that wait for me ‘cause someday soon the last let go will come into my room and i want peace and i want to know that all those other letting go’s will help me see what waits for me is an eternal embrace it really is amazing grace He never has and never will let go of me
so welcome to your new day time to tell your story time to give yourself away let go of the worry and why so much hurry time to slow down what story will you tell this day so welcome to your new day don’t compare and don’t stare at all the insta-images that sometimes just won’t dare to be real and to say i’m who i am occasionally stumbling always broken anxiety has stolen some joy but i’m who i am loved by God an image bearer of my Creator i am here on this new day so see the Light who makes wrongs right and mends our hurting souls He lifts our heads shows us the way each time we go astray He forgives welcome to your new day let go of that worry don’t hurry past the Light on this new day
i took a breath listen i took another one i can hear the soft hush of oxygen entering my lungs bringing life listen another hush is this what life sounds like i opened my eyes color light darkness shadows hues stars sunsets waterfalls my little girl’s impossibly tiny fingers the gaze of my beloved eyes they all fell through the windows of my eyes i opened my eyes is this what life looks like i felt something the slightest variation of texture of temperature an embrace a fall day wrapped in a favorite sweatshirt the caress of snowflakes on my face is this what life feels like i heard a sound a song a melody the waves crashing on the shore the symphony of autumn leaves my little boy is crying thunder calling across the sky someone said i love you is this what life sounds like and life can taste so sweet as coffee chases the donut ice cream’s creamy comfort the delight of strawberries i can smell each fallen leaf calling winter near the scent of summer rain and the blackened marshmallow in the snappy campfire is this the aroma and flavor of life and what of all the pain and sorrow too countless tears and so alone and shame chases me down the years is this what life is transcendence calls me home the unseen real touches my soul i long for a place that is real that is safe at home with the author of my soul complete and whole finally at peace is this what eternal life is yes to all the above and more i am here no one took me away so yes to life yes to the story teller of life
sometimes i feel like i don’t belong i’m not a part of the song that everyone seems to know and i wonder if i’ll ever know how to sing again you see i’m not quite sure what’s deep inside i’m not quite sure that i’m all right i’m not quite sure if i matter did i ever matter hey world i wonder if it’s okay with you to quietly say i’m not okay i’m sad and don’t know why i’m mad and even when i try to find some rest all i find is just a mess i’m just a mess so i still will pray peace be still God please invade my heart and my will and let me see what you see in me and rest i am a mess but i’ll rest in You i’ll rest in You
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