when tuesday said goodbye

Enjoying an unusually mild February and some beautiful skies. Thanks for stopping by.

beautiful new day

A peaceful dawn. The dam on the Illinois River in Marseilles, IL. Then somewhere between Marseilles and Seneca, IL. Midwest beauty is a thing. :)

goodbye friday ransom illinois style

I don’t have any specific stats, but it feels like the cloudiest winter ever to march across this part of the Midwest. This past week the sun was able to out maneuver Mr. Gray Skies and make an appearance.

oh Lord and Light

like a black sea
stretching out before me
all this mystery
of what is yet to be
all that i cannot see

like a black sky
slowly descending over me
telling shadow stories
all i cannot hide
a dark gray canopy
made up of all my whys

oh Lord and Light
guide me on my way
help me navigate
this story through the night
waiting for the day
longing for all made right
for the unseen real
to replace
what all the senses feel

like a dark wave
swallowing up my soul
all the doubt and shame
why must it
be this way
growing old
is growing close
to a different shore
to so much more
than the sum of my failures
or anything labeled
a success
it’s all just a mess

oh Lord and Light
i’m grateful
that you gave me sight
for this mess
that i call my life
for you carried me
you saw me
you ransomed me
so i’ll follow you
i’ll turn to you
surrender to you
and let you tell me who i am
for you are love
and far above this darkened sky
and far below this blackened sea
your glory and light
your power and might
the Lord and Light
is with me
in me
all around me

the Lord and Light
is with me
in me
all around me

you want some things to stay

your grandchild’s giggle
a warm smile from a stranger
an embrace from the one you love
you just want some things to last
a walk beside the sea
the scent of falling leaves
a comforting glance for your sorrow
you just want some things
not to go too fast
a melody that makes you cry
someone saying i forgive you
sweet vienna fingers with some coffee
you just want some things
to not slip into the past
a frigid cold morning sky
whose design and colors
takes your breath away
couldn't think of a better way
to start and end a day
than losing myself in the beauty
swimming in the artistry
trying to take the whole sky in my arms
you just want some things to stay
you want some things
to never go away
coffee
vienna fingers
embracing the whole sky
i just want some things
to
stay
maybe never have to say
goodbye

winter fire sky

as the winter fire sky
gently carries the day away
i allow my eyes
to drink in the beauty
and let the colors
fill my mind

a glorious letting go
a blazing surrendering
to time
are there moments
in those colors
memories in the
winter fire sky

take a photo
maybe this
digital likeness
will connect me
to the weightless
wonder and reflection
deeper connection
to the Artist’s
dazzling affection
for creation
and
all His children
winter fire sky
thank you for
your singular
contribution
to ease the longing
it’s not a solution
or absolution
just a nudge
a reminder
that helps me remember
that there is more
than all our senses tell us
the unseen real
the shadows of glory
an endless story
is whispered in my heart
as i say goodby
to this
winter fire sky

a sleepy dawn

a sleepy dawn
awakens above
a gentle rippled river
colors dance
with clouds
azure meets crimson
i hush my soul
and listen
listen to
the voices
and the noises
trying to discern
which way to turn
to join this dance of light
and fight
the gravity
in me
so much to do
so i just choose
to be
put the camera down
enter the beauty
of all i don’t see
access doors are open
heart and mind
in loving union
in the losing
life is found
in the losing
life is found

and shine and fly

new day
shines
and sings
colors bring
a smile
or two
we journey on
some journey through
this beauty
brings to mind
there is
so much more
to find
than
momentary
distractions
they
leave me
fractured
i want
i need
i thirst
but all this greed
whatever
it is
i choose to feed
seems to
get
a hold
of me
i want to let go
i want to be free
in His truth
i will be
the true me
and shine
and fly
with colors bright
and soar
and seek
and risk
this self
and choose
to love
to sing
to breathe
and start
remembering
i
was
meant
to fly
i was meant
to see
and
one day
be
in
eternity

breakthrough

we people are a funny mix
don’t you think
or
at least i am

anyway

sometimes
the sun is shining
smiles and laughs
no room for whining
like i want to photograph
every moment
capture
the rapturous mood
i’m in

and
at
the
same
time

no
really
at the same time

rain pours down
all around this town
of memories that sprouts
like massive trees
in a forest of lies
and shame
and why’s
and pain
and ties to the past
that seem to last
like a long sad song

so
i
pray

break through
in rays of hope and light
dear Lord
help me regain my sight
and “though the wrong
seems often so strong”
You will make all things right
‘cause You’re writing a story
full of downpours and clouds
writing a story
of songs sung out loud
of Your love and Your glory
of the way that you carry
this tale called my life
in Your everlasting arms
i am choosing to rest
to stop and embrace
the things i don't see
to silently wait
to just.... be
and see you
breakthrough
all the rainy
and cloudy in me
breakthrough
and one day
make
all
things
new

settle

i want to settle
like the setting sun
all the crazy
as i run
through the tears
and disorientation
from the madness
of meditation
on the losses
and the misses
the noises of confusion
settle like the setting sun
into color
and calm
the balm of a song
that reminds me
that though there is wrong
in me and in you
that redemption is true
that beauty resides
in the heart
of life in Christ
for He suffered
He cried
He was angry
and He died
He lamented
and prayed
take this cup away
so sadness
and heartache
anxiety
is a thing
we can bring
to His Cross
to His care
to His suffering
settle
oh my soul
settle
in the stillness
of the Light
of His love
the color
of His grace
the glory
of His kindness
the promise
of a better place
where tears
will never fall again
light will never set
and never end
settle
oh my soul
settle
feel it all
and settle
your Savior knows
He sees
He feels
so don’t push
the mess of life away
let it remind you
a better day
awaits
walk by faith
not by sight
it’s going to be
all right
settle
oh
my
soul