set free

i don't know about you
but there is so much
i need to say goodbye to
i'll welcome the endings
practice some surrendering
it's hard to study
all the expectations
that are now
a pile of eliminations
i thought this or that
would be the life
i would have
releasing longings
into the fiery ending
of this day
i guess
it will be okay
turns out being free
is not about me
trying to step aside
God
are you tired
of hearing
about my pride
set is ablaze
like the end of this day
i'm tired
of getting my way
love and hope
sin and shadow
peace and stillness
heartache and sorrow
is there a place
deep in the marrow
of my soul
where all
the counterpoint
of being human
is awakened
restored
and rises whole
saying goodbye
to all that tethers
me to this dirt
i'd rather
stiffen my neck
than lift up my eyes
stand on my own
than fall to my knees
search me
and know my heart
let all the parts of me
that you see
with grace
and mercy

be

set

free

this tattered old town

in and around
this tattered old town
nestled in the state
of my mind
taking a stroll
on the pathways
through my soul
standing on the corner
i see memories
of younger days
melodies of different ways
on a street named regret
at the corner of joy
looking for an answer or two
reaching for something true
since i was a boy
acceptance
forgiveness
and gratitude
my heart yearns
for something more
than the sum total
of my days
so i set my gaze
on things above
the unseen real
unfailing love
and i wait
and choose to be still
as the sun
settles down
on this old tattered town
i welcome
the end of this day
knowing it is the only way
to a new dawn
another pathway
hidden in the Light
safe in Him
i rise
i am safe in Him
i’ll rise

the Light

the Light chases us
even through
a dense darkness
a disorienting mist
that surrounds our efforts
to run towards anything
that helps us
to feel
loved
to feel
free

the Light waits for us
as we meander and stumble
through grief and sorrow
like a thick forest of tears
you cut your way through
angry branches
and leaves of sadness
but the forest
closes in
and muffles your weeping

the Light sees us
even when we can’t breath
and anxiety transforms the world
into a tiny box
from which
we cannot escape
and what we want
more than anything
is to be able
to stretch out our hand
so someone
can take hold
and guide us home

above
beneath
behind
in front of every cry
the Light

above
beneath
behind
in front of all your sorrow
the Light

above
beneath
behind
in front of all your fear
the Light

above
beneath
behind
in front of you
the Light
a hand extended
to guide you home
a warm embrace
to welcome you home

a day gone by

oh don’t mind me
i’m just waiting
for the end of the day
anticipating
not that i want to rush
to say goodbye
but i must
so here it is
a day gone by
forgive me
for the the unfinished things
and all that i did too
loud words unspoken
all that i said
i just want to rest
for a moment
inside this sunset
just for a moment
in beauty
wonder
and dazzling sorrow
so
don’t mind me
i’m just hanging on
the push and pull
i don’t want to miss
the painter’s sky
yet a part of me
just wants to cry
for the gifts i hold
and all i lost
so here it is
a day gone by
funny how the history
of a single day
can end so beautifully
oh to fly like the birds
soar and celebrate
no i’ll just quietly
let the colors paint
my soul
and
say
good…
…bye

the best sunset…

If you have hung around this blog for about, oh let’s say 3 minutes, you will know that I post many – as in “mucho many” – images of sunsets and sunrises. I am consistent, if not boring.

So, this past week, my wife and I have been enjoying a vacation on the Gulf Coast of Florida. As you imagine, the week here has afforded many opportunities to capture spectacular sunsets. And I did take too many photographs.

Before I share those, I thought I would share a post about the last sunset we saw together. I spent so much time taking pictures during the week, that on our last night at the beach I decided to be present to my bride, and present to the setting sun. I am so glad I did. 

Sunset was around 7:25 PM. We sat down around 7:15 PM…ish. From this point, this is what I remember:

We placed our seal level chairs right at the edge of the gentle Gulf waves as they splashed over the white, baby powder sand and washed over our feet. I think “sea level chairs” is the correct technical term. They are very low to the ground. I know this because of the forklift that was used to help me get out of my sea level chair.

We angled our chairs – maybe the correct term is, “I dare you to get up chair” – just right so we would have a perfect view of the water and the sun as it made its descent towards the horizon.

There was a gentle breeze. This was unusual because each day this week was based on a weather template that included very hot and humid conditions, bright, blazing sunshine, and air molecules that were not permitted to move.

When we sat, there was a golden path stretching from our feet right to the edge of the horizon, just below the sun, reminiscent of Dorothy’s Yellow Brick Road, only with more waves and seagulls.

At times, it appeared as if the sun was shooting out this… tractor beam that would soon draw us in its light to meet the great star on the horizon. Then, a bird would catch my eye, and when I looked again, it appeared like the path was being created by… us! Like these impossibly close to the white, baby powder sand chairs were emitting a path of their own for us to follow. Whether it was the sun, or our powerful chairs, the beauty was hypnotic to experience.

This was because the gold highway cut straight through indigo blue water… no, wait… it was a blue-ish color with tints of green hues and dark small ripple shadows created by the breeze. I can’t say that I have ever seen water that color before. The water was not reflecting the color of the sky. The Gulf was creating its own magic with wavelengths of light.

The soundtrack to all of this was the beautiful ostinato of the swoosh and bubble-gurgling of the small waves, accompanied by the erratic, staccato calls of the particular kind of seagulls at this beach. I know as much about seagulls as I know about sea level chairs, so I can’t tell you the name of the musical ensembles and their performances. I imagined it would be what Stravinsky would write if he wrote a composition entitled: “The Rite of Sunset on Siesta Key.”

As the sun descended closer into the water, the people enjoying a stroll on the beach would stop. Some would look. Others would take out their phones. I did not judge them.

We kissed as the last, tiny, marble sized ember disappeared into the end of the day. Somewhere it was dawn.

beneath a blanket of blue

i
lift
up
my eyes
to the
fields
and skies
and
let
this
fleeting
day
pass
away
another
moment
a shifting
hue
in an
instant
a crimson
glow
grows
beneath
a blanket
of
blue
this
choir
of
colors
quietly
slowly
lends
gentle
tones
to
feathered
clouds
above
time
softly
closes
the
door
as
i
whisper
prayers
of
awe
reverence
and
gratitude

all the goodbyes

a fleeting embrace
ending
with one last glance
one last wave
as you step
through security
with no one to help you
with your insecurity
ushered into
a waiting room
after transferring a kiss
from you hand
to her forehead
overwhelming outcomes
swirl in your mind
a quiet prayer
folded hands
shoulders
crushed beneath
sorrow and pain
rest
gently rest
i’ll see you
again
a collection
of expectations
neatly organized
as you donate them
to the upside down reality
that is also your lament

younger days
when smiles
were abundant
surrender to
deep steel eyes
aged by the weight
of all that you must release
all that you thought
was the melody of your journey
memories
that just fade
and others
that won’t go away
songs that remain
falling into the echoes
of time and reminiscence
of sad joy
and mournful gratitude
sunsets loudly
dazzle your soul
swallowed by night
colors overtaken
by unstoppable darkness
still
i welcome
every hello
every greeting
every start
every beginning
every hope
every hug
every grace
every possibility
every giggle
every sunset
every sunrise
while holding
all the goodbyes
and i’m glad
so
immeasurably
glad

i
am
with
you

do you see

i haven’t thought this
all the way through
but i thought
i’d share it with you
i’ll start with a question or two
do you see
beauty around you
do you see
beauty within

colors and clouds
shout out loud
the sky canvas
telling us
connecting us
to deeper
fairer things
do you see
do you see

the beauty within
you are an image bearer
you are the only you
but let’s set pride aside
perfection does not reside
inside
His favor abides
you are
His child
His creation

do you see
beauty around you
beauty within
we are all
a glorious ruin
we are lost
but we can see
blind
but we can be found
do you see
do you see

sunset at the wind farm

I still haven’t figure out why I find these wind farms so fascinating, but, that’s okay… it’s enough just to share the end of the day with some wind turbines. Thanks for stopping by.

when last wednesday said goodbye

I must have received a tex, phone call, or otherwise got distracted and never finished this post. So, here it is. Thanks for stopping by.